This is were reality sets in
I always dreaded this moment
As true reasons unfolds,
melancholy fills the air...
For so long,Ive been longing
but for endless occurences,
I always end up like this...
I wish I could just be insensitive,
and not care at all,
I have a lot to give but never given
the oppurtunity to share...
When will I ever learn??? Am 
getting older and lonelier
But I know in time,I'll  have to acceopt
my true fate....in time...
I guess the next thing
I need to work on, is to accept things
I cannot change....

Not that I want us to argue all the time
but he's so good to be true.
A true gentleman and very responsible.
I hope he wouldnt change. I just wished that
we can spend more time together. I miss
him more everyday. I always want
him to be around,but I am mature
enough to know that there are more important
things we need to attend to.
Time is really not on our side,but the good
thing about it, is whenever were together
we make sure to enjoy each other ...
looking forward to the days ahead...

I dunno but Iam supposed to be happy
but there is a gush of sadness at the same
time. Ive waited for this for so long, but
I don't wanna keep my hopes up. I know he
deserve someone better than me. I know I
can't live up to single unattached women.
I just wanna be happy with someone,why
does it have to be that complicated???
Why do I fear so much... Ive been hurting
too long....

Oh well I really can't contain
the happiness Iam feeling right
now though I know this can be
shortlived or there is no gurantees
either. But I just wanna be happy all
without worries though I know
as times goes by I'll see more...
But let me enjoy this moment
Ive never felt this in years ..Iam happy
and blindly in love!!!

Well life has really so many up's and down
and honestly right now I think Ive got one of
life's surprises. I dont want to be too expectant
but all I can say is Iam enjoying my time and
really loving it.
Iam excited in what the future may bring
but the most important thing is being happy
and no worries...
Living one day at a time that's what I always
keep in mind right now...let's see

trying to be busy these past few months
so far so good. Just have to prepare a bit
for my upcoming surgery. There is a cyst in my
ovary that has to be removed or else I'll never have
child again. Actually I dont mind,I already have one
and I don't know if I'll ever gonna marry.

It's not Iam closing my doors,but Iam getting
older and less prettier I think. I have more
important things to attend like raising my kid.
Tough as it may  be but Iam left with that
obligation. And Ive had to live with it .
Not that Iam complaining, at least I have proven
some thing good has  happened out of
bad things.

It just saddens me that probably I am destined
to be alone. Sometimes I ask myself if Iam a
failure or is it just the wrong men I meet
along the way. But as I see it, I may be right
my former companions
are quite fulfiilled men and now a doting family men
while Iam left as a proud single mom.

Iam tired of parties,Ive lay lowed in a while but
they would always  remembered me being
that old party pooper,I guess nobody really
knows. Ive always wanted them to realize
that Iam not a hopeless bitch,that I can also
be capable of loving. Oh well...

Life must go on.....Iam excited with Carol's
upcoming wedding

Iam really pissed off with my coworker here in
the office. Well at least Iam honest enough to say
that. I really pity her for being that way. It's all work
and no personal thing involve. Why should she be
envious with a person like me if she thinks her life
is perfect. People would do anything just to
be seen... all I can say is, probably my presence affects
her so much,she must think Iam a great influencial person
that can make a difference,otherwise she would have just
shrugged me off, rather than be affected by me.
Iam rejoicing how you put up a fight with small petty
things,it just shows how slob you are...poor thing
How much your pissed by my majestic presence however
I don't even notice you exist... Ive already disregarded any
thing to do with you and I am good with despising people
not important in my life...I bet it's killing yah....dnt be
I wont even budge